One year on, bonus season followed by the sudden leave of group CEO. Leaving season, together with numerous MDs, Ds and Ads. Confused, but I remain status quo…

But outside of the work space, life is no longer status quo. One year on, with fewer and fewer books read, with fewer and fewer friends around, with deeper indulgence into the medical series House, I caught the same symptom. I am not just growing older. It is not just the hours, it is the emptiness, a vacuum. With the birthday cake going down to the stomach, I know the experience of last year cannot repeat.

Then suddenly comes the long-waited summer. With the flooding clouds going away, the sunshine reveals the heat and the true cost of the job.

First time in six months, I log into MSN, trying to catch up what the similar girls are doing. Sigh, the beautiful wedding photos. Alone is not terrifying, but lonely is. Hate this status quo…

Always want to have some change. But lack of bravery. Admire those who are willing to be vulnerable and give away trust.

Never mind, I occupy myself with my new gadget. After six months of having an iPOD, I finally have some time to figure out how it works. The first album I successfully transferred apart from the legacy classical, is Gorillaz. A very different taste of music. Revolutionary is the word I describe it. The first impulse is to get the animation DVD of the group. Jamie Hewlett is my new idol after watching BBC art documentary Imagine, title Monkey, journey to the west. The documentary followed the making process of the musical based on Chinese classical literature. The music is composed by Damon Albarn, member of Gorillaz. A very great adventure in music and a great success in combining the western and the eastern culture.